God has
uniquely made me.I have a
distinct personality, different likes & dislikes from others, different
opinions, different ways of doing things and dreams for my life.Sometimes I am get frustrated with who
I was and who I am.
Why can’t I be like that? Why can’t I do that?
Etc. Etc. Etc.
But God has made
me the person I am for a reason.
Now, that doesn’t give me the excuse to be complacent. I am the person God needs me to be
right now, but He isn’t done with me.
Denying that puts doubt in His sovereignty and love for me.
Lately, I
have been realizing how much I think about myself, my situations, my feelings,
peoples’ reactions to me…the list goes on. I was a little grossed out by that
fact. Even with the right
intension of not being self-centered, I was wrapped up in me. That’s the thing about intentions….they
aren’t actions. Actions actually
require movement.
Okay so here is my point…finally,
right?
I am going
to meet people who are completely different than me: in convictions, God’s
plans for our lives, and so much more, but I think we get stuck in worrying
about the little things that we get away from the point….JESUS. That’s all that really matters. I need God’s strength everyday to walk
away and remember it’s not about me! I don’t need to prove I am right and try to
be good enough because thinking and doing all that still all comes back to me. I need an attitude check and eyes to see His action in my life. It's all about Him. I need His guidance to give up intentions and choose
action. Action resulting in obedience.
The author talks about pinning to the glory of God- without envy, comparison, jealousy, or idolatry. Without worshipping the created things over the Creator. Without living in a fantasy world with an idyllic, unattainable self.
I feel like this relates to a lot of things, not just Pinterest. It relates to Facebook, and shopping, and conversations with friends, and visiting others' homes. It's a hard thing to do- to be in relationship with others without envy, without comparison or jealousy or idolatry. It's hard, but not impossible. For when we keep our eyes focused on the thing that really matters, Jesus' love and sacrifice, all the little things just fade away.
1) days were
I seem to fit in everything plus the kitchen sink
2) days were
I can't seem to accomplish anything
This weekend was
most definitely number one. I feel like I haven't stopped moving since
5am Friday morning and so do my feet (anyone really good at foot massages?)
But 5am is where
my weekend started...Settle in for a couple of highlights:
1) Friday morning
sunrise in honor of Laura's birthday!
2) Finish last
undergraduate class
3) Pausing the
Harry Potter movie to watch parodies of the movie (to enjoy one as well click....here)
4) Wishing my Mom a
happy Mother's Day
5) Enjoy a few special moments in the sun with my roommates.
Some big changes
are coming at the end of this week. It’s bittersweet. I am so joyful. I love that because it doesn’t mean it’s
going to be easy, but I am going to be just fine.
Check out Reject Apathy... a magazine [both online and in print] shoot-off of Relevant Magazine (KC blogged about that here). I received the first issue this summer at a conference I attended out in Colorado Springs.
This mag is chock-full of information on social injustice, poverty, violence, the environment, etc. Their tagline is: Sustainable change. Sacrificial living. Spiritual revolution. Good stuff.
I've been learning a lot about contentment lately. Contentment in the face of the unknown. Contentment in the face of unjust circumstances. Contentment in the face of things I have absolutely no control over. Contentment in who God has made me.
Quote by George MacDonald, taken from "Calm My Anxious Heart" by Linda Dillow, pg 45.
Friends, He so delights in us! How amazing is it that the God of the universe thought of and fashioned each of us for a plan and purpose that will bring Him glory?! It has been blowing my mind this week, the immense love that God has for me. The depth of feelings and tenderness that He has toward me. How He thinks about me constantly and takes pleasure in my love. Takes pleasure at the slightest turn of my head towards Him.
And when I just settle into His love, I am able to be content. I am able to turn off the voices in my head, if even only for a moment, and listen only to HIS voice...
'I love you. You are mine. I take great delight in you, child. How precious you are. Look at who you are becoming! I am so proud of you, my daughter. Follow me. Stay in my presence. I am good, and I only have your good in mind. Trust me. I love you.'
